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Monday, March 31st, 2008
12:25 pm - Eating disorder bloggers wanted for survey
rachelr59 I am a current graduate student researching the social history of food-related disorders, inspired, in large part, from my own struggles with anorexia and bulimia.  I'm conducting an anonymous survey of bloggers who blog about eating disorders or eating disorder recovery in partnership with a clinical psychologist for joint research and publication purposes.

I'm hoping our survey generates lots of responses so that our findings are well-rounded, inclusive and convincing.  The only two requirements are that you must have an active blog and that it must address, at least in part, your experiences with an eating disorder.  I'm hoping for responses from people of all ages and genders who are in all stages of recovery and who suffer from a diversity of eating disorders, from anorexia to binge eating disorder to ed-nos to orthorexia. 

If the scope of the study pertains to your own experiences, I invite you to participate by taking it.  More information and a survey link can be found here or http://the-f-word.org/blog/index.php/2008/03/23/eating-disordered-bloggers-wanted-for-survey/

Thank you!

Rachel Richardson

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Tuesday, February 20th, 2007
1:15 pm - New community

thin_spire_me I just started a new community and I'm looking for two or three people to help me Mod because I it's my first community and I want it to be as successful as possible. So please take a look and see if you would like to be a Mod and help me run things. It's for thinspration of all kinds. Such as poetry and quotes music, pictures of real girls and models ect... so please take a look so I can get this up and running because I would like to have at least two memebers by the end of the week. So if you are intersted in being a Mod please reply to this post. Thanks.

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Sunday, June 25th, 2006
1:18 pm


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Friday, June 16th, 2006
9:18 pm


Where support meens support. 03W2

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Monday, May 29th, 2006
3:47 pm



Please read the userinfo when joining.

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Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
1:12 pm


Join fixmymirror now! We are a new community for any eating disorder, and are in need of new members!

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Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
12:43 pm

Hey girls. I have just created a new community for people with any eating disorder. You can do whatever you want there. Post thinspiration, share tips, whatever...please join. I want it to be a safe place for us all to go.


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Sunday, August 1st, 2004
10:01 pm

Hi everyone. I joined this community ages ago but have never posted. I'm 21 and just was discharged from Rader Programs in California were I spent over 6 weeks. I'm trying to not fall back into my eating disorder. I have struggled with anorexia and bulimia for 8 years. Hospitalized 2 times before Rader and something at Rader has stuck... I'm really trying to stay focused on my health. I'm in California for another month (staying with relatives) before I go back to the midwest. So right now I have no psychologist on nutritionist to get me through the hard days. That's way I am enlisting the help of my livejournal! lol. Just wanted to introduce myself and you may see me around =) -just a fore-warning :)-

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Thursday, July 15th, 2004
11:00 am - Breathe ladies.....

Image Hosted by ImageShack.usI had a binge last night. It might not sound like much of a binge to you, but to me it was really bad and I barely slept because of it. I don't think I even got 4 hours. I had a slice of toast and jam - and I only did half my alloted exercise time. I have my period and my legs just would not move - even though I did have a 300 cal dinner and Stacker earlier in the day. I feel disgusting. Then I ate some sweets this morning. I have alot of walking to do today though which makes it a bit easier - maybe after I am exhausted from exercise then I will feel clean again. I feel dirty - I just want to go up to the bathroom and drown myself really, make myself clean somehow, or else take the breadknife to my thighs... god I hate them. They have shrunk, but then they just make my arse and calves look chunkier. They should be made to pay either way, hehe :)Image Hosted by ImageShack.usI'm trying to be easy on myself, to be understanding but the trouble is when you feel like a person in your head only and you are trapped inside this body which is ugly and misshapen you really don't care too much what happens to it. I am body dysmorphic, I have AN with bulimic episodes, and I compulsively exercise. The only thing that would bother me about if I fractured my ankle would be not being able to exercise and how I'd not be able to eat at all. I do not want to die but I have very little regard for my body, the 'outer shell' if you like. My thoughts, my neurosis, my intelligence is me, the rest is just the husk of genetic matter I happen to inhabit. Is anyone else here very very detached from their own body? I can't actually remember a time when I didn't feel like that. Even as a child I didn't mind blood being taken or injuring myself - I just used to be very calm and look at what was going on with an almost morbid fascination. Because I can feel it, but it's strange when you get sensations but they feel wrong because the body isn't something you actually associate with being 'you' Know what I mean? My childhood was so totally fucked it's no wonder I was never 'normal'.
I'm leaving email comments on with this post because I'd be interested to hear any comments you have about BDD and alienation from your own being. I will pop them together on the site if that's okay. They might be useful to someone. The Angels BitCollapse )

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Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
12:13 pm - Hello people

Long long weekend, so hard to not be able to browse any pro-ana sites or anything, but my man had a long weekend off from work - which is fantastic, but it does severely limit my browseing time. We have our own PC's but I can hardly sit there and browse these places when he thinks my ED days are firmly in the past. I did have a great weekend food-wise though. On Sunday I ate 400 cals and then worked off 1100 in the evening. Bloody hell, Stacker 2 is amazing. When I had bulimia I remember how after a few purges I'd just kind of black out on my bed back at my Mum's and just be there shivering for about an hour, unable to stand up and then have to really make the effort to get up and exercise etc. Stacker makes it possible for me to ingest less than I did in my Mia days and to have energy for long workouts. I love them. I have a big stash. I only use one a day in the afternoon because otherwise my heart races too much and I shake.
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Aaaargh, the most annoying thing happened too. I sent off to Kelloggs to get their cheap pedometer offer. Except they have run out and they sent me a 25p coupon off their cereal (yeah right) and say it could be up to 6 weeks before I get it. Which is annoying. A friend of mine has just got one and become a bit addicted to it. She always has it on and when I see her she goes into a spiel about how far she has walked that day and how many calories have been burned. I often walk alot in a day so it will just be interesting to see how much more I actually burn from normal movement and walking in a day rather than just the usual workout deductions. How much have people here been doing a day if they have one? Are they good? Do they make you motivated to walk further? I like going out walking. I'm away from the kitchen and so long as I don't have anything but my keys with me I can't fell prey to temptation... :) I'd like to hear anyone's comments about them if they have one or have tried using one.

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Friday, July 2nd, 2004
10:50 am - Want to buy decent diet pills online at sale?

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9:44 am - Hmmmmm.....

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Had a strange couple of days. Always eat a bit when I'm ill because I just feel like I have ZERO energy and therefore need a little bit to keep me going. Hard to stomach when you are used to black coffee, and then a little dinner once a day about 7pm, but hey, apart from the fat gut and the fear and self loathing, it was fine [/sarcasm].
The worst bit about being ill is exercise. I find it so hard, whereas normally I need it more than anything else. Still got my fat arse on my bike and pedalled away but you know what it's like - unless you do your normal target, or better when you exceed it, then it's not good enough. That little voice talls you that you're a stupid lazy selfish cow for worrying about fainting in front of your family if you'd gone on, and how you should have burned that other 150 cals away anyway - especially as you ate in the day. Small flapjack and some rice cakes. Fuck me, I feel revolted at the mere thought of it.
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Thursday, June 10th, 2004
12:43 pm - Please post up your history.

Pretty - and oddly enough nothing like meI thought it might be nice if we posted up our histories of how we came to be where we are now. It might just be interesting to see how much common ground most of us have. Please post these details either in a new message if you are a member of ANA ANGELS - or else pop it in the free-for-all BUDDY LIST.

Do you have a GENETIC PREDISPOSITION? Do ED's run in your family?
Did you have a stereotypical 'anorexic family' growing up? That is negative, where parents were interfering and overprotective and where expectations were unusually high to achieve and succeed? Did you avoid conflict with your family? One parent overbearing while the other was quite passive? Family rules so strong it was difficult to express your individuality?
Were you subjected to abuse - whether of a sexual, physical or emotional nature?
Did your ED start due to adolescent crisis?Were you stopped from taking risks at this age and was your homelife unstable at this time?
Did it start out as a desire to conform to the social desire to be slim?
Was it a part of searching for autonomy?
Did you inherit low self esteem from parents who feel that way about themselves?
Did it start around the time of a period of separation or loss?

Just thought it would be nice to share. I fall into almost every category and it's actually of some kind of comfort to know I'm just a textbook anorexic as opposed to being the freak I always felt like growing up. The person is inside my head, that is me. But 'the body' I am trapped in just makes me sick.

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Sunday, May 30th, 2004
3:25 pm
anagirls Ana Girls

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Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
4:04 pm - hello
myscarylife Name: Holli
Age: 19
height: 5'2"
current weight: 145 ins *cries*
goal weight: 80-85 ibs
BMI: 26.56
Email: scarylifeofana@yahoo.com or girliegirl@buzzle.com
Yahoo IM: scarylifeofana@yahoo.com

I really don't know how to introduce myself to these making friends groups. So, I'll try my best.
I like meeting new people. I've been looking lately for though is someone that are living with thier boy/girlfriend/husbands/wife, so that way we can help each other with hiding our ed, by share tips, ideas, etc. But even if your not living together or just not with anyone I'll still like to talk with you, or whatever. You can add me to your friends list on your journal, or on your yahoo IM, or just email me if you want someone to talk too.

current mood: hungry

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Friday, April 16th, 2004
3:18 pm
c4lyps0 check out my community face_the_scale
sorry if this isnt allowed

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Thursday, March 11th, 2004
1:25 pm - Hello My name is Mary and I need Motivation

Hello I am new to all the communities I am xposting so I am very sorry if you get this message several hundered times. This will be the onlt time I do it. My name is Mary I am 23 years old. I am what I would call extreem dieting curently I have been binging and purging for about 5 months now.. for at least three months I did not keep one thing down. Mostly because I was having cmplications with my galbaldder and it was inpossible to keep things down.. I had my galbladder removed and I did not want to stop. It had just become so easy and over the span of the 5 months I have lost 58 pounds. I am very happy with my progress. I have joined all of you here cause I despertly need to stay moitvated until I am at my goal weight. My stats are sad but here they are:
current weight: 228
highest: 281
Lowest: 180
GOAL: 130
LOST SO FAR: 58 pounds
So I am not sure if I am anna or not but I have had issues with food my enitre life.. I use it as a comfort. I am now finding much more power not having to relay on food all the time. I am hopping to make freinds here and support one another. I also would love any help you could give me and I would love to help all of you in anyway I can. Thank you for your support in advance I have found so much insperation reading you posts...


current mood: hopeful

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Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
10:59 am - New Community

I have created a new community for adult EDs at 21plus_ana. In many ways individuals who are no longer in high school or at home with their parents have different problems and concerns than those who are younger. I am hoping that this can be another source of support for us. Come check it out!

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Tuesday, January 6th, 2004
2:31 am - Heya!
outrageous_gurl Im new to livejournal and am desperately seaching for other ana's! So plz stop by my journal and throw in a comment:)

Im 20 yrs old, been on n off ana since summer 2002.
HW 172
LW 99
CW 147
GW 100 (95)

Im also looking for buddies, support, some tuff loving when i fall.

Diet: 7 days, 6 meals at 50 cals -> 2-3 days fast and then start all over again!


current mood: cheerful

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Sunday, January 4th, 2004
6:00 pm - Hi there =)

I found this community while searching for an "ana add me" sort of group. Looks like I've found the right place =) I'm looking for LJ buddies who are going through similar struggles and feelings as I am.

A little about myself:

Name's Lucretia. I'll be 24 in 3 weeks. I've had anorexic tendancies on and off since I was 13 years old. I'm currently struggling with it, once more (after coming out of an abusive relationship and after living through my mother's suicide attempt). I'm 130lbs, 5'1", and not happy at all with my body. I know I'm not as heavy as I think I am, but I can't stand to see my reflection in the mirror. And when I try to eat, I literally have a gag reflex. I often wonder why I do this to myself, but at the same time, if I do not, I fill with such self-hatred towards my body. I don't understand it really.

So, that's a little bit about myself. I'm looking for others who can relate, who are around my age group (18-whatever). If you don't mind occasional whining, feel free to add me. I will most certainly add you in return =)


current mood: blah

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